My new CD entitled, “In Progress”

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Short clips from the panel, “Postcapitalism, Prison Abolition, and Transwomen”

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Breaking Cycles of Violence Against Transwomen:

This Is About You Too.

by Emmi Bevensee

    The current socio-political situation of trans-women globally, and specifically in the U.S., is a great travesty but, it is also a source of intense political and social revolution and healing. To address and embrace this concern I began to do intensive research into the question of “Breaking the Cycle of Violence Against Transwomen”. This process resulted in my writing of a field reader and ultimately in my compiling/creating of an infobase related to this rich complex of issues. Using this base substrate I led a series of workshops, panels, and discussions to engage directly with the public about these issues and as well to learn what the hot-button pursuits are in the different communities most directly affected or in relative power. From this place of entrenched inquiry I was able to find a point of reference to confront the power structures I see most prominently and directly responsible. I found that the most direct structural culprits are neo-liberal global capitalism, colonialism, and unrestricted/inhumane globalization. Together these processes mark an imperative turn in the conversation such that the lives, struggles, and freedom of cis(non-trans)people, marginalized, and trans people alike are intricately interwoven and interdependent. I have found that two of the most direct lenses to study these phenomena in the United States are through the Prison-Industrial Complex and its resistors as wells as Indigenous queer decolonization, theories, methodologies and tactics. From all of these threads of praxis I have surmised four basic and imperative points:

1. The situation for transwomen, especially those who are additionally marginalized(ie. also facing racism, ableism, classism, etc.), is currently terrible.

2. The situation for transwomen intersects and is relevant to the experiences and oppressions of cis(non-trans) people as well.

3.Our liberation through and beyond repressive systems such as capitalism, colonialism, and globalization is interdependent and we urgently need each other.

4. There are varieties of movements and organizations already happening that need support and connection.

My Positionality

I am a white, transsexual, transgender, gender-queer, queer/lesbian individual. I have lived in a variety of socio-economic situations from complete poverty and homelessness to the bourgeois lifestyle of the United States upper middle class. I came into an interest in this work around violence and repression within trans communities due to a personal and political crisis of meaning wherein great portions of my community as well as myself were being pitted against constant and actual threats of violence; whether at the hands of themselves, another individual, group, political/power force,  or the the state. From this point of entry I found a world of great healing, resiliency, political change, and social reform. Amidst my astounding community of peers and elders their stands a great legacy of transcendence through inhumane boundaries and barriers. The goal in this paper is to research, be open and humble to the results, and act as objectively as possible, while still maintaining and recognizing my experiential subjectivity as a valid and valuable point of entry.

Methodology

The methodology in my research has been mostly through pilot qualitative research and analysis. My primary mode of research was through participant-observation (Silverman, 2010). This was conducted by holding a series of dialogues with communities that are affected(ie. trans people) and people in positions of “power”(ie. therapists). After these sessions I also gave participants the opportunity to write about comments, questions, things learned, and critiques. There are both physical and media examples of this amassed material. In this form of embedded praxis I was also engaged in a form of activist ethnography(Graeber, 2009) in that I helped to give a great many people from underrepresented communities a chance to have their story heard and recognized publicly or privately by one or many other people. This storytelling allows for socio-political representation and personal healing to advance as can be seen in the experiences of those working within Restorative Justice(Sullivan, & Tifft, 2006) and through the work done by Dr. Crystallee Crain in the Truth Telling Series(2012). I was also able to develop and reframe my theoretical analysis from within and with the communities most affected. As opposed to imposing my theoretical framework down onto participants, I was able to listen and get greater insight into the ways my ideas were right and wrong and find deeper paths to pursue this work. To this angle of accompaniment I invest great gratitude in Zapatismo as a practice, philosophy, and way of living.

Historical

    The rich is history of transwomen is rich and of a depth of historical relevance and significance yet it is largely missing and non-existent. A few transgender scholars such as Susan Stryker and Leslie Feinberg have picked up the slack by helping to archive our history.  This erasure is no political accident, it is a historical form of invisibilization and cultural denial used to continue stigmatization. The phenomena of being sexually or gender diverse long predates the language we have invented even to describe gender in general.  An oft-cited memento of trans history is the often misrepresented and contested example is the legacy of Herculine Barbin who was a French person in the late 1800’s(Barbin, & Weil, 2008) whom we would now likely consider to have been intersexed. Herculine’s story is both tragic and intoxicating in it’s conglomerations of life in nunneries, exile, transitions, migration, stigmatization, political confusion, and ultimately in Herculine’s suicide. Herculine has been written about by such prolific scholars as M. Foucault, J. Butler, Kate Bornstein, V. Wolf, and several others. Although this is not a specific example of a transgender woman it shows how the history of trans and intersex people is often either non-existent or skewed towards a lens of sensationalism, “otherness”, or freakishness instead of as a phenomenon of existence,  authentic expression, and humanity.

One thing we do know however is that the historical standing of this complex of issues around transwomen specifically is that is deeply entrenched in a peculiar discrepancy of violence/exploitation as well as in resilience/resistance. Transwomen have been long since relegated to dangerous and disproportionate(compared to a cis-normative world) positions of servitude, genocide, assault(physical, mental, sexual, emotional, economic, etc.) and repression within the United States and abroad(Bevensee, 2012)(The National Coalition of Anti-Violence Programs, 2012). The evidence for this disproportionate violence is incontrovertible and comes in volumes despite the tendency towards research to stray away from issues related to transfolk. There are also cultures that have traditionally revered who are now sometimes identified to be ‘transwomen’. These traditions have often seen ‘transwomen[sic-’transwomen’ contestable as ‘western’ queer colonizer language]’ as simply people that are often great spiritual leaders, healers, and story-tellers/keepers of stories(Eleneke, 2012). Capitalism, colonialism, and corporate globalization is largely at play in these discrepancies of violence and poverty witnessed in many of marginalized communities and traced to the dilemma of transwomen, native sex and gender diverse populations, and transwomen of color in particular. The same trend can be seen as well as the invisibilization of spiritual and socially respected roles of trans identified people within native communities with increasing trends towards colonialism and global capitalization.

When I speak of Capitalism in this context I am talking of a free-market economic system where control of people’s sustenance and livelihood is controlled by a select few who have, or can access/leverage money. Most people in this economic system do not control the means of their own livelihood. The state also largely does not control the economic markets. So if one begins to ask “Cui bono?” or “Who benefits?” one begins to see that within this paradigm it is those who have money that benefit and control money(read: power). The regulatory power is largely in the hands of corporations, banks, and those involved with trade which are the same conglomerations that the regulatory power most directly benefits. Capitalism is an economic system that demands a constant growth in order to exist. It is in this way unsustainable due to finite access to resources within any closed system. Capitalism lacks in a true power source for human power and any ideal of democracy because it depends on the exploitation of those whose lives it controls. Their can be no democracy in a growth based economy with a centralized source of power(Phōtopoulos, 1997).  The historical setting of the brutal transition and birth of this paradigm can be seen in the destruction of the “commons”, or shared agricultural, cultural centers of Feudalism in the 14th and 15th century through the rise of capitalism and cementing of its practices through the 16th century and mirrored in the global economy today(Federici, 2004).

Capitalism as an economic system has also expanded to become the dominant global economic paradigm of power(globalization) as can be seen in the policies of such organizations as the World Bank whose United States Executive Ian Solomon directly said in a skype conversation with my cohort that ‘Subsistence is not a goal of the world bank(Solomon, 2012)’. Within this line of reasoning communal wealth(the commons), social welfare, and human rights can and will not have an appropriate seat of power and influence. This can be seen time and time again in the path of destruction in countries such as Argentina, Jamaica, or Mexico that have been structurally adjusted or ‘given aid’ in entering a competitive and massively stilted global economy and then were left in tatters with as a result of this ‘aid’. In all of these programs of “development” indigenous and native peoples lives are largely destroyed in a nearly irreversible manner. Even though the World Bank claims(Different name same game?) not to be doing structural adjustments anymore(Solomon, 2012) they are still encouraging practices like insidiously leveraged micro-loans to those with little knowledge of the associated risks in third-world countries.

In this untempered dogma of constant growth there is another huge and imperative incongruence; colonialism. In global(and localized) capitalism there is an increasing need for resources because it is an economic system driven by expansion. Colonialism then is the byproduct of capitalism which can be defined here as the stealing/conquering of people, lands, resources, etc. outside of a country, main municipality, neighborhood, or personal space by that more privileged force. In this context we can look to the remnants of conquest of Indigenous people in the United states or to the Trans-Atlantic slave trade both of which grossly tainted the human legacy with the unfixable traces of imperialism. We can then more currently look to the forces of economic colonialism that do comparable levels of damage in the name of “growth” and “development.”

Capitalism has stolen our livelihoods. Trans women are disturbingly often forced into the most dangerous and impoverished neighborhoods and occupations such as that of forced sex trade/trafficking(Independent Television Service, 2005). Colonialism has destroyed many indigenous sex and gender variant people’s lives and cultures(Driskill, 2011). Globalization continues to cement these practices of homogeneity, “othering” of difference, and exploitation/destruction of marginalized people into a global paradigm of corporate-political neo-liberalism and autonomous, subsistence-economy rape via global capitalism(Mies & Bennholdt-Thomsen, 1999). This trace can be followed all the way into incidences of dynamic rebellion such as the Compton Cafeteria Riots(Independent Television Service, 2005) in August of 1966. This revolt was a cataclysmic result of the utter degradation of largely queer/trans communities of color and sex-workers in the urban ghetto Tenderloin District of San Francisco. I mention this incidence due to its locality to the populations with which I have worked most directly. Overall the historical context of pluralistic and intersectional trans struggle is rich in it’s complex diversity and tragic in many of its realities. This is but a glimpse into a world which cannot be contained by language.

Theoretical

    The most basic thread of inquiry that I was asking and being asked by trans women was basically, “Why are we so poor? Why is there so much violence?” To look into these rich varieties of topics I realized that my theoretical gaze could only truly be grounded in the lived experience of transwomen if it was also(in addition to scholarly research) to be based on people’s direct experience. To accomplish this balance I gleaned insight from scholarly peer-reviewed research and theory, personal blogs, conversations, propaganda(example attached), outsider research, community discussions, activism, pamphlets, and self-investigation. From this jumping off place the theoretical entry point into this work was primarily from the realm of critical theories such as queer theory, trans theory, and feminism. Upon digging deeper into the questions and issues of violence I was exposed to another angle which is the importance of post-colonialism/decolonization theories, post-capitalist frameworks of analysis, and queer/trans globalization/neo-liberalism critiques. As I began to look and listen beyond my relatively privileged position within trans communities(as white person, able-bodied, citizen, etc.) and look past the largely white, upper-class, and cis-centric narratives of queer theory, I began to see a deep intersectionality of a variety of different conglomerations of repressions manifesting in a spectrum of ways in the lives of all transwomen.

The most evident form of this to me was the way in which colonization often impacts the sex, gender, and sexualities of native peoples by repressing, othering, destroying, and stigmatizing traditional sacred beliefs as well as continuing this trend by defacing native heterosexuality and masculinity with the stigmatized labels of queer or effeminate(Driskill, 2011). The flip side of this being the long history of native resistance to settler sexualities and gender roles(Morgensen,2011) as can be seen in the current practices two-spirit organizing tactics which often center in decolonization and emphasize the spiritual and political role of those who are two-spirited(Driskill, 2011).

   

Within post-capitalist paradigms I began to see the trends of repression and exploitation exposed within capitalism and the ways in which certain people and groups resist this seemingly faceless phenomena. One particular way I see this is within prison abolition critiques and struggles. The prison-industrial complex(PIC) is in Angela Davis’ words, “Complex actors and institutions working systemically who benefit [read capitalism/post-capitalism] from ensuring the entrapment of people in the penal system (Davis, 2012).” Within the communities of transwomen, the cyclical and often inescapable phenomenon of being funneled into the prison pipeline is even more disproportionate in communities that are also black, brown, or native(Smith & Stanley, 2011). In San Francisco there is an organization called “Transgender Gender Variant Intersex Justice Project(TGIJP, 2012)” that is a firmly abolition stanced organization that meanwhile(while doing additional abolition/policy work) fights for the rights, humanity, and decreased recidivism of primarily transwomen of color. They are run mostly by transwomen of color, many of which have direct and/or personal experience with the PIC. Organizations such as this work with what they have to be able to make the difference they can. Their work is imperative in uprooting and revealing the failures and tragedies of capitalism and global capitalism within trans-communities and in creating pathways to new possibilities. Accountable alternatives to the PIC exist in many other realms such as those of Restorative Justice(Sullivan & Tifft, 2006) which is increasingly being pushed for and put in place, especially wherein Indigenous people are concerned, in certain places such as Canada(The Gladue Report), New Zealand(Circle Processes), and Oakland, CA(Oakland Unified School District).

Globalization and neoliberalism finally work to cement these types of processes of exploitation and repression into a homogenous global paradigm of corporate, monetary, and trade based power structures; all the while ignoring the humanity of those incarcerated(literally or figuratively) by its politics of dominance with notable discrepancies towards those who are transgendered(Spade, 2011). Another simple and often overlooked form of post-capitalist and critical-globalization struggle is the simple and complex act of engaging in community building. In a capitalist system where the commons are destroyed in favor of a neoliberal, individualistic, pressurized approach to economy and power, one of the most powerful acts that can be done is to simply know ones neighbors and to respectfully attempt bridge this connection into communities of which one is not a part(all the while being mindful of humility and appropriation). This is especially true in the most marginalized communities where power dynamics work to destroy community solidarity in order to prevent subversion of dominant paradigms and maintain the status quo. The last thing slave masters want is for the slaves to remember how many slaves there actually are and how few slave masters.

I spoke with this one boy who had been in the penal system since he was 13 years old at one of the events I spoke at. He told me that he never would have committed the first crime he was convicted of if he had support from his family(chosen or biological) and his community. This simply goes to show the deep fractures that colonialism, capitalism, and globalization create in order to keep people docile and unquestioning in our pursuit of our own survival and solely those of which we closely associate. To do work from any angle that addresses this healing of community (personal and political being inseparable) is a revolutionary act.

My Main Presentations, Workshops, and Dialogues Recently Completed

1. Creating and Sustaining Peace Conference- My talk/discussion was on “Resilience and Resistance in trans communities” in the Humanist Hall, Oakland, CA- Nov,18. 2. Graduate, MFT, Multicultural Counseling Class in the Integral Health Counseling Program- My talk/discussion was on “Transwomen and a therapeutic context” and addressed common issues of trauma and violence found with transwomen as well as the role of a therapist in conjunction with this. This took place at the California Institute of Integral Studies in San Francisco, CA. 3. Larkin Street Youth Services- I led/facilitated a client dialogue around safe spaces, community, and respect at a queer, homeless/at-risk, youth, drop-in meal night. 4. California Institute of Integral Studies- “Postcapitalism, Prison Abolition, and Transwomen” I organized and spoke in a public panel discussion with the, “Transgender, Gender Variant, Intersex Justice Project”. In this event, myself and two other women mainly spoke, in addition to our facilitator Crystalle Crain. One was a native/indigenous Hawaiian Mahuwahine(also transwoman identified) person. The other was a formerly incarcerated Black American transwomen. Both of these powerful speakers do major socio-political work and healing now through a variety of angles. In order to make this event happen I did, fundraising, applying for funds, advertising, created literature, outreach, planning, structuring, planning my own talk, and general organizing necessary in conjunction with a few other individuals who supported me. Over 65 people(with more coming in) were counted at one point in attendance.     -Video clips at http://www.truthtellingseries.org/events.html     Of all of these events, I collected information of comments, critiques, and learning from the event in the graduate therapy class as well as in the panel discussion done with TGIJP. Of these comments  I realized a few important facts. The first is that there is a huge shortage of awareness into these issues. The second is that, at least within this area, there is a desire and pulse of activism seeking greater awareness. The third, is that people need help with all of it. These conclusions were come to after much analysis and dialogue from both of the classes and the comment cards as well as within the discussions that were had in and outside of all of the events. The critical comments of my work have said things such as [within the therapy talk] that people wished I had talked more about my personal experiences as a trans women in therapy because this was the most impactful moments. This is definitely valid and yet contradicted by those in the same class who appreciated the theoretical and quantitative analysis. I seek to approach this delicate balance with greater scrutiny in the future while also being aware of my own personal need for safety within the context of intimate sharing. I also got a critique in the panel about access to the building and that security was requiring state id which I completely agree is outrageous and unacceptable and discriminatory towards immigrants and others without access to such leverage. The only other notable critique I got was in the panel discussion in which someone said that, “the white panelist[me] talked way too much” and another who was concerned that I was positioned so as to answer the questions first before Melanie, the other main speaker from TGIJP. These concerns are very important and insightful. In the future I will organize my panels to create a greater symbolic and practical power balance. In speaking directly with Melanie she didn’t share the emotions and felt grateful(as did I) for the opportunity and experience we all shared. Regardless I would like to address these concerns by stepping back so that others relatively less privileged than I may step forward in my future engagements of this manner.

Results

    In entwining with this work I have had to address many of my own prejudices and limits of awareness. I have also been more able to see violence against transwomen head-on for what it actually is. Being challenged is the gift of following this thread of collective trauma and engaging with it’s growth in whatever direction it takes me. Moving forward I plan to continue to organize, do more thorough and in-depth research, and do direct action into these complex and rich paths of inquiry and praxis. I will continue to work with TGIJP in whatever context I can, conduct/attend discussions, research, and continue writing. I also plan to pursue greater anti-racist/unlearning white liberal racism trainings and life practice to increase my ability to be an ally to the communities of color with whom I work. I am also heading to Chiapas to learn more about what it means to be an ally to indigenous communities and individual people while all the while seeking to undo the colonized wiring of my own mind to an ever greater degree.

Conclusion

    Throughout this intensive work, the main points from the introduction have remained pervasive and clearly ringing. In simple terms; transwomen are in a dangerous socio-political plight. Trans and cis(non-trans) people are interdependently enmeshed in repressive structural systems/forces such as capitalism, colonialism, and inhumane globalization. There are great undercurrents of change rippling among us that need support. Decentralized human centered political power can and is increasing diverse minority representation and voice for transwomen and others in post-capitalist alternatives. Decolonization can and is working to break down the oppression of difference that destroys and divides trans, indigenous, and disenfranchised communities(think Zapatismo). Globalization can shift from a push towards ever centralized economic repression to a heart-grounded gathering of the world and its genders, sexes, and sexualities in all of our complex diversity. Following these emergent realizations has been a hugely humbling and simultaneously empowering experience. My hope is that myself and others can find the similarities and connections in each others’ work and dreams so that together we may bridge the gap between us and work to promote a greater liberation and basic human rights for trans-women as well as all marginalized people.

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Queering and Decolonizing Post-Colonial/Capitalist Queer Theory:

Sex, Gender, and Sexuality on a neoliberal landscape

Aimé Césaire says at the end of his earth shaking text “Discourse on Colonialism”(1972), “It is a matter of the Revolution—the one which, until such time as there is a classless society, will substitute for the narrow tyranny of a dehumanized bourgeoise the preponderance of the only class that still has a universal mission, because it suffers in the flesh from all the wrongs of history, from all the universal wrongs: the proletariat.” This powerful quote is both far-reaching limited in its reach. It is bound, like all critiques by the narrative of its time. In this same way, queer critiques of post-colonial, post-capitalist, and globalization can often come up short and with many perspectives erased. Césaire ended this famous essay with a battle cry reminiscent of the Marxists among his companions and also of his own interests in Marx’s work. Although it is impossible to know exactly what Césaire meant by his use of the historically loaded term, “proletariat” it would still seem that this is a limited call to action compared to the diversity and richness of his entire critique. This is a parallel of a phenomenon that is both impossible to entirely avoid and imperative to confront within a large bulk of current “queer” studies of post-capitalist, post-colonialism, and globalization and their mysterious shortage of issues related to gender diversity. However, within decolonization queer/trans movements, the issues of gender diversity and modernity are confronted more head on possibly due to the greater space for gender diversity within many indigenous traditions and movements. Although post-capitalist, decolonization movements, post-colonialism, and critical globalization studies/actions are not the only solutions to a dense range of issues and questions I will here critique the shortages and offer an addition to these lines of inquiry.
To engage this query around the apparent shortages of trans/gender diverse critiques within these fields of study and to offer another possible thread I first ask, “What is it about the trans-body or the transitivity of gender that is so offensive? Why are trans women, and especially trans women of color, murdered, abused, traumatized and brutalized at such disproportionate levels?” Trans-people and trans-women in particular are by our very nature illegal. We defy the rules of capital so we are, in a sense, post-capital. We cannot help it. In our world of modernity everyone is told that individuals exist and that the root of our happiness is our ability to rise to the challenge. What then of those who have a greater rising to do to meet that challenge? What about those to whom the challenge itself is by all means beyond reach?
Trans-women are against the law, in one sense because we cannot help but deny capital. Our often spectrally gendered landscapes cannot be adequately controlled by the measures of exploitation and commodification that capitalism demands. We are given unequal access to the tools needed to succeed(and be exploited) and then we are punished for our inability to be adequately exploited.

How can this be? Since trans women cannot, in good liberal posture, be outright genocided we are instead extinguished through largely hidden mechanisms of structural control. The real and confusing thing about this is that being trans in and of itself is not a harm to anyone. If anything, we offer alternatives to the riddles of subversive and concrete gender roles mandated against cis(meaning: non-trans)-people as well. We say to people that they exist in a web of cultural and political interactions that demand that you do not question your gender and sex. Instead though many people see either a threat to be destroyed or something foreign and exotic to be controlled and made to feel “other” or less than(colonialism). The deeper catch to the truth that being transgender is inherently harmless, is the fact that it is not even us that people are often trying to destroy; It is the idea of us.

I do not seek to promote an over simplified “bad apple” approach to the problems and questions of trans-violence. Instead for this talk I would like to refer to a range of largely structural phenomena that play a part in the genocide that is happening right now around us all. I talk of being trans as post-capitalistic and against the law. This is not meant to be taken as a literality but an angle into a deeper idea. Everyone is in some way immersed in the web of global capitalism, colonialism/neo-colonialism, and globalization. I do not mean that trans people are not accomplices in this cycle of exploitation, but rather that we are largely forced into a position where in order to subsist and live with an eye, ear, and heart towards our own authenticity, we must circumvent the mandates of these policies of control. I refuse to say that these three ideas(post-capitalism, decolonization, and globalization critique) are the sole crux of any dialog against violence against trans-women I am simply shining a light on this thread that I feel goes largely untouched.

There exists a huge underground economy of sex work in the communities of trans-women of which I have been a part. Not because we are ‘so sexually devious’ as a prevailing and transphobic mythos would have it, but rather because we are denied opportunities to play in the game of local/global economy and are then shuffled and funneled into the prison-industrial complex so that we(our bodies and our sex) may be more effectively taxed. Since many of us are non-(child)reproducing (whether by hormones, choice, sexuality, and/or surgery) we are not able/choose not to help in the recreation of a new labor force. Therefore our sexualities cannot be easily commodified by the production of labor forces. An extension of this issue of how trans women are an affront to the capitalist and globalization powers is that we are largely not able/choose not to uphold the nuclear family model of religious, capitalist, and globalization wedlock. Especially those who are non-operative and heterosexual cannot get legally married in most states because of difficulties in changing our gender/sex on our federal forms of identification. Gay marriage is not the solution to this problem even though these heterosexual unions are often classified as homosexual domestic partnerships. Since there are so many of us not reconstructing the colonial and capitalist reproductions of a nuclear family, we can be a wrench in the illusion that this is the only way to live, even if some of us may actually desire little more than equal access to be a part of that very same dangerous system of inequalities and exploitation.

In “Caliban and the Witch”(2004) Sylvia Federici evokes a powerful incantation and critical feminist analysis of Marx’s idea of “primitive accumulation” and the missing story of sexual, social, political, and physical repression of women throughout the period of “transition” between feudalism and capitalism. She describes the witch hunts as a massive destruction of all things related to women and womens’ power such as cultures and wisdom(ie. arts and mid-wifery) and the lives of a great many women who were murdered. She also compares this to the sweeping waves of neo-liberal policies enacted in our current process of globalization and colonial capitalism. Her argument also applies, if not purposefully, to the situation of trans women in globalization. There currently rages a witch hunt against trans women. In some places loudly, in others more subtly, but destructive and murderous either way. Globalization erases us, our values, and our livelihood. Colonialism makes us into the “other”. Capitalism bleeds our blood until every last vein is dry and seeking breath.

In the Castro neighborhood of San Francisco there is a store on the corner of Castro and Market called Diesel. It is primarily an Italian jeans store. To commemorate the Castro’s role as a hub for the ‘queer’ community(what is actually largely white, cis, gay men due to its gentrification) they have posted a rainbow colored version of their primary ad. The image itself is a roughly Native American looking caricature surrounded by text reading, “Only the brave- Diesel”. On asking the employees, I found that this text means that “you have to be brave to where Diesel jeans and that it’s therefore a compliment to Natives.” I am guessing however that they do not mean that you have to be brave because you are promoting a company that uses colonialism, sexism, homophobia and racism to sell a capitalist commodified product. This image seems to flaunt a patriotic reverence toward an unspoken history of genocide. The reading of this representation is further complexified by the rainbow coloring of the Native’s face. So now there is not only a representation of genocide but also of the subsequent colonialism and impact on indigenous views on sexuality and gender with a ‘Western’, “settler sexuality(Morgenson, 2011).”

If this is the situation then what are the alternatives? Many answers lies in indigenous decolonization movements and queer indigenous decolonization movements. To this end I promote Zapatista philosophies of autonomy and decolonization espoused so eloquently in, “The First Declaration of the Lacandon Jungle” written by EZLN(Marcos, 2001). Here they resound, “But today, we say ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. We are the inheritors of the true builders of our nation…….Therefore we ask for your participation, your decision to support this plan that struggles for work, land, housing, food, healthcare, education, independence, freedom, democracy, justice and peace. We declare that we will not stop fighting until the basic demands of our people have been met by forming a government of our country that is free and democratic.” This revolt was a direct action to confront the terrors of globalization enclosing upon their means of livelihood. In another particular diversity the successes of the activism of Two-Spirit people can be a gauge by which we measure the success of queer movements in general. Especially in Queer movements’  inclusion and at least respects towards native needs and a different outlook on the binaries of hetero/homo, man/woman, sexual minority/gender minority. The extent to which us non-natives can recognize the role of decolonization, become allies, and take into account Queer Indigenous Critical Theories in our analysis of post-capitalism/colonialism, and critical globalization is simultaneously the extent to which we are actually able to embody and enact a broader movement of queer solidarity with greater efficacy(Driskill, 2011).

Queering and decolonizing the deeply entangled worlds of post-capitalism and post-colonialism is a start in the complex struggle of building a new world within the poorly fitted outfits of current and past trends in globalization. I do not claim to offer a holistic solution to this dense range of drives however, I do posit that even within the critical queering that is happening in these realms, there is a great need to decolonize and diversify non-native, white, gay(cis-male)-centric narratives; and to enjoy, bask, and revel in the pools of vibrant solidarity that can happen together.

References

Césaire, A. (1972). Discourse on colonialism. New York: MR.

Driskill, Q.-L. (2011). Queer indigenous studies: Critical interventions in theory, politics, and literature. Tucson: University of Arizona Press.

Federici, S. (2004). Caliban and the witch. New York: Autonomedia.

Marcos, ., & Ponce, . L. J. (2001). Our word is our weapon: Selected writings. New York: Seven Stories Press.

Morgensen, S. L. (2011). Spaces between us: Queer settler colonialism and indigenous decolonization. Minneapolis: University of Minnesota Press.

Capitalism, Colonialism, and Being Trans:

Why we’re broke, Occupy sex, autonomy, and the underground economy

“Why are we so broke and why is there so much violence?” This is the main question I see trans communities asking if not in so many words. This paper is framed within the post-capitalist(and global capitalism) and anti-colonialist(decolonization) movements in order to find backbone of solidarity and a places for people concerned to see living examples around them. Global capitalism and colonialism are inherently structural projects of violence against the many to protect the few. Colonialism targets those that are “different” or “othered”. Capitalism targets those that don’t have enough access(classism) to be successfully exploited and supports anyone who exploits each other. Capitalism and colonialism enmesh in specific and general ways that exacerbate existing problems within these systems in the lives and experiences of trans women. Movements beyond these systems are happening now and affect not just trans people and trans women in particular, they also affect everyone. Transwomen represent a particularly vulnerable minority that can, if you pay attention, help to show the ways our struggles are connected. Nearly everyone is exploited by capitalism and colonialism so this has to do with everyone. This is because gender is the all encompassing sea of assumptions and expectations with which everyone grapples. The discrepancy of violence against trans women is simply one piece of a larger puzzle that includes racism, sexism, misogyny, homophobia, ableism, classism, and all other forms of repression of marginalized peoples and non-marginalized folks alike. Together we can claim and create what is our birthright; basic and truly equal opportunity for contentment and life.

Some of the largest difficulties that trans-people face are issues of poverty and violence. Capitalism and colonialism create the soil in which these issues thrive due to their inherent compliance with the violent exploitation of all different types of labor(not just men and ableists) and the suffocation of minorities. Trans movements needs to become more firmly seated in the post-capitalist and decolonizing action and dialogue because our struggles are not isolated. We face often similar issues as many people in our communities. For this reason, developing a broad base within the framework of existing movements and working with the solidarity of momentum surrounding these movements, can unite our communities while radicalizing and galvanizing our perspective and actions towards a more meaningful and strategic direction.  

To begin to demonstrate my perspective I will first tell a short story. Recently I went to a rally and march in Oakland. It was for and around Middle Eastern Solidarity and occupy. Eloquent Iranis and Afghanis spoke in powerful dialogue with a large crowd of supportive and diverse participants. From this place of firm seatedness within the dialogue against colonialism and capitalism the rally then turned into a march. It was then that the largely white-skinned (although not completely) and anarcho black bloc(or should I say largely white bloc..maybe a little touch of middle class entitled rage?) began to emerge and within a few blocks the stay-aways(those already banned from Oscar Grant Plaza- an enclosed commons for social organizing and community sharing) met up as well. Several streets got shut down with people or barriers. Within minutes me, a friend, and two prominent local organizers and anti-repression activists were surrounded by the sheer spectacle of destruction. At first banks in every direction were getting destroyed. The sound of plexiglass shattering reverberated through the night. Then the fervor began to turn to individual citizens things such as cars and privately owned cafes. Regardless of how anyone, including anarchists, feel about private property, these types of things such as cars, people’s houses, and private businesses are definitely people’s livelihoods. These people are involved in the same exploitation of which we are all a part. Citizens terrorized in a cafe does nothing to help the plight of Afghanis stigmatized in the states. If anything it promotes the kind of terrorist stereotyping we are fighting to destroy. The main complaint I hear about occupy from locals goes something like, “Who the fuck are you? Go smash up your neighborhood.” My heart was conflicted. The anarcho and diversity of tactics strategies have their place but it must be within an ongoing movement and careful strategizing. The trans movement then as well needs to radicalize and be strategic in its outlook. We need to learn from the mistakes and successes of our fellows in revolution. We will at some points need the support of the community and it is essential that we not alienate them even if our tactics require doing things not commonly supported. This simply creates a deeper rift than we are trying to solve.

Privilege, angst, and lack of strategy haunt the occupy movement and queer/trans movements yet, at the same time what is sometimes perceived as lack of direction can also sometimes be misunderstood as diversity of tactics and internal aims. Many people coming from different backgrounds and with separate dreams SHOULD have a diverse agenda. To not  would surely be subjugation of someone. One person I met denounced the black blocs that were not strategic in their approach and claimed a “double edged sword of organizing” where he must choose between not wanting to condone violence(for fear of sedition/conspiracy/destruction of private property charges) yet not wanting to be against it for fear of silencing the revolt or dismissing diversity of tactics.

In “Caliban and The Witch” Silvia Federici describes a similar process of events coming to play in the ‘transition’(brutal enclosure of the commons) to capitalism from the 14th to 16th century in feudalist Europe. She describes,  “In the middle ages, migration, vagabondage, and the rise of “crimes against property” were part of the resistance to impoverishment and dispossession; these phenomena now took on massive proportions. Everywhere—vagabonds were swarming, changing cities, crossing borders, sleeping in the haystacks or crowding at the gates of towns–a vast humanity involved in a diaspora of its own, that for decades escaped the authorities’ control”….. ”Meanwhile, the crime rates also escalated, in such proportions that we can assume that a massive reclamation and reappropriation of the stolen communal wealth was underway.” This is such a powerful reclamation and a striking comparison to Occupy. If we are in a recourse of history may we at least learn from it? In queer and trans movements capitalism and colonialism are not just the ghosts of our history. We must acknowledge our complicity with them and there violence in order to move forward. We must alter and supercede them for the social benefit yet along the way we cannot afford to dismiss what is actually happening in the here and now and work to reform it.

How does the underground economy and other stigmatized forms of relations relate to these issues of capitalism and colonialism? Are we coercively forced into the underground economy or is it just plain better money?

It’s easier to make a smash em up style march suddenly than to plan it with strategy outside of the action. This is why I frame my trans analysis within structural post-capitalist, anti-globalization, anti-colonialist analysis. One example of the tendrils of this claim is found in sex-work. So many trans people I know are either forced into sex-work non-consensually or don’t feel they have any other options. I have no doubt that not all sex-work is this exploitative however in the cases where it is, it’s useful to recognize the overarching systems that create this impulse initially.

As it is mentioned earlier, trans people are often less able to be successfully exploited by capitalism due to an initial lack of access. A lot of us(like a lot of non-trans people) don’t want to or can’t have children for example. This practice of refusal or inability to pay(hospitals and designer baby clothes) to be exploited and repopulate the labor force(ie. “You’ll grow up to be exploited in the workplace just like daddy!”) decreases our value to the GDP which denies the existence of all non-commodifiable,measurable, and/or controllable work. Sex work and other forms of recreational or non-culturally condoned practices and social-relations such as BDSM, polyamory, etc. are then subject to systematic destruction via removal of resources and access to individual and collective betterment. Sex workers and pro-dommes are often imprisoned for their choice or lack of ability to do other taxable and commodity generative work. Afterall good sex can’t be subsidized(by Capitalism). Poly families are often not recognized and given equal rights to raise children then the children suffer. Post-operative and non-child creating trans women are not recognized for their ability to reproduce(babies) in the way that society deems normal and are such ostracized and stigmatized despite the multiplicity of other ways than having a kid in which society can reproduce, reinvent, take care of, and better itself.

Autonomous Conclusion

Ultimately society is(or at least can be) in charge of itself and yet doesn’t seem to know it. Occupy presents a single call to diverse unity and revolution and there are many more. Trans movements need to be invigorated and reclaiming of the commons is a profound way to do it. As access to community spaces and hubs of social power are further enclosed and commodified we become less able to access the means of our own sustenance except through a structurally adjusted and commodified trade in which we pay for our own exploitation. Debt is our prison. A slow costly death our sentence. There are however revolutionary, simple, and pure acts happening around the world. Horizontally arranged movements and internally generated autonomy are happening around the globe. Zapatistas do not demand that all women be subjugated and do not seek capitalist and colonialist power. In fact a huge portion of Zapatista ‘leadership’(in the “lead by following” sense of the word) are women and are often even young women. In certain African farming communities women have been found retaking WTO stolen communal land plots and farming them for themselves and their communities so that they don’t have to rely on catch-22, high interest micro-loans. Instead they are able to create and control their own savings(energy). A diversity of opinion and internal control over a communities own livelihood is a form of direct action. Trans people must practice and constantly reshape and evolve our strategies in this way in order to reclaim what is ours from the start; a basic happiness, wellbeing, and equally valued place within society(or the lack therein) in order to live and create our own way and escape from our treacherous and impoverished(not poor) landscapes. So as Zapatismo would have it, “Ya Basta!”- “Enough is enough!” and as some dude at the action would say “Don’t fake the funk!”

References

Federici, S. (2004). Caliban and the witch. New York: Autonomedia.

Federici-Talk given at CIIS


Pidgeons by Emmi B

 

In spontaneous eruption

the earth revolts/

 

A geode sits

by the thermal pools/

 

oceanic crevice blues,

elegant purples,

and brimstone reds

confront our imposed

domicile of

 

homogeneity/

 

We tremble.

 

A black flag and a brick

through a banks window

(or three)

in Oakland

on Sunday/

 

the circuitous recourse

of history

unveils itself,

again/

 

“How can we sit by when our benches have been stolen?”

we scream/bloodthirsty

 

Nature feels/

what power/

refuses to speak/

Too Queer to Belong?

What is all this obsession with the ways in which one doesn’t belong? By no means am I dismissing the recognition of oppression and divisions of privilege, rather I am raising a gaze into the ways in which ‘not feeling a part of’ can worm its way outside of necessary cries for equality. What does it mean to feel as though one ‘belongs’? What ways do people try to ‘fit’ better in order to feel a sense of belonging? To what extent is a sense of belonging related or not to being surrounded by what one ‘is’ or identifies as? Can queerness be a term of its own assumed exclusion? Can it also represent a culture of equality wherein ‘queerness’ can be seen as a part of what creates and embraces a seamless and diverse unity with ‘non-queerness’? To what extent is the question of belonging entrenched, or not, in privilege? These questions about the nature of belonging and queerness are here aiming to address the extent to which notions of belonging can be both problematic and important.

What is ‘belonging’ anyways? I’ll start with the somewhat colonial direction of definitions and etymology.

Dictionary.com:  be·long

   /bɪˈlɔŋ, -ˈlɒŋ/ Show Spelled[bih-lawng, -long] Show IPA

verb (used without object)

1.to be in the relation of a member, adherent, inhabitant, etc. (usually followed by to ): He belongs to the Knights of Columbus.

2.to have the proper qualifications, especially social qualifications, to be a member of a group: You don’t belong in this club.

3.to be proper or due; be properly or appropriately placed, situated, etc.: Books belong in every home. This belongs on the shelf. He is a statesman who belongs among the great.

Etymonline.com: belong (v.)

mid-14c., “to go along with, properly relate to,” from be- intensive prefix, + longen “to go,” from O.E. langian “pertain to, to go along with,” of unknown origin. Senses of “be the property of” and “be a member of” first recorded late 14c. Cognate with M.Du. belanghen, Du. belangen, Ger. belangen. Replaced earlier O.E. gelang, with completive prefix ge-.

Let’s dismantle these pieces of the puzzle. “1.to be in the relation of a member, adherent, inhabitant, etc. (usually followed by to ): He belongs to the Knights of Columbus.” So this is more a matter of connections? Like, “I know that person at that restaurant she’ll hook us up with some free fries because she belongs to the same organization as me.”  NEXT! “2.to have the proper qualifications, especially social qualifications, to be a member of a group: You don’t belong in this club.” The question of privilege lurks so near to this definition. Again, how much access have you been given by those controlling the power to access this “club” or group? NEXT! “3.to be proper or due; be properly or appropriately placed, situated, etc.: Books belong in every home. This belongs on the shelf. He is a statesman who belongs among the great.” To be proper? But who decides that? Is inherent similarity or appropriateness the judge or is it again the product of privilege ‘given’ by those in control of the social construct of “knowledge”? Ughh. NEXT! The etymology raises something unique from the others that is to, “pertain to, to go along with”. This is interesting due to it’s agency given to the person feeling as though they ‘belong’ in any given situation. Is belonging just the sense of “going along with it?” or of some abstract “pertinence?”

I find these descriptions to be lacking. They are missing some essential ingredient of my experiences with belonging. So when I describe the experience of a true and deep sense of belonging I am speaking quite simply of an authentic sense of connection. I’m going to attempt to avoid using any more words and colonial mannerisms to further clarify this explanation.

As a queer trans-woman I know what it’s like(to an extent) to not see my representation in culture and my surroundings. I know what it’s like to feel forgotten or threatened by the heavy hand of discrimination and protective brutality of privilege. I also have found great senses of belonging in my life including with musicians, academics, queers, people in recovery, certain places, exiles, homeless, travellers, activists, lovers, friends, and even with some family who accept me. I am also white.  In a culture of presumed(by virtue of colonial sympathies) whiteness I should, and on some level do, know what it feels like to belong. I have lived in widely varied spectrums of income and class which surely influence my perspective(from poverty and homelessness to upper-middle class suburbia). I also struggle. In a room full of queer people of color in which I am the only white person I will likely feel more comfortable than in a room full of hetero white folks(especially if they’re of the upper-class U.S. caste-like system) because I would feel a greater sense of hope for the possibility of having had or sharing similar or relatable experiences with the queers of color(especially if they’re of the lower to middle class). Though I still take part in white privilege, it seems as though I identify more with queerness than with whiteness or ‘wealth’. This could be simply interpreted as a denial of complicity with the violence of privilege. Also I feel a greater sense of resonance with those who have been and feel denied, to some extent, access to that which should be granted all human beings. It would seem I identify with ‘not belonging’. How can one ‘belong’ to and abstract notion of ‘not belonging’? To what extent is that sense of belonging referring to the “dominant culture”?

It is often a mirror of privilege to idealize oppression. Do people really believe that it is somehow ‘cool’ to be an outcast or pariah(for examples of this see my addendum at the end of the essay)? Personally, it’s really quite a terrible experience. To be clear, I am in no way supporting assimilation. Our diversity is our biggest strength as queers(and humans). However, I see most often the people most benefitted by privilege competing over who is the most oppressed or “has it the hardest”. To be transparent, I’m sure I’ve taken part in this type of negative celebration before. It can in some certain instances and manners be cathartic. However, this phenomena of so deemed ‘oppression olympics’ seems hardly worth the words on this page except to see the ways in which a sense of belonging can be related to a desired perception of identity, or from the etymologies stance, to be “going along with” something. This seems to run contrary to the idea of belonging as related to being a “member” or of authentic connection. No matter who one is, it is imperative that we not be complicit in the violence of perpetuating privilege by first denying our own privilege. Everyone plays a part in the system of privilege and that might not look the same person to person.To be an ally and recognize one’s place in privilege can be a tool to decolonize one’s personal prejudices. However, to identify with, as opposed to relate to, an experience not a part of someone’s direct experience is to encourage the destruction of the experience of those from which one is stealing. To sympathize(have had the same experience) is crucially different than to empathize(feel like, relate to, or feel similar to). So to belong, I have to first know who I am in a deeper way than just a blind acceptance of what I want to be or consider myself as.

I bring up these issues because of a concern I feel with the ways in which queer ‘community’ can spiritually bypass(i.e. ‘we’re all the same cosmically/or as queers so let’s ignore issues of racism or sexism’) any notions of difference in its pursuit of ‘equality’. This manner of ‘equality’ is more hegemony, or repression of difference, than true equality. To feel a contrived sense of belonging at the cost of someone else’s experience is to deny the possibility of an authentic connection. Who is being left out when someone says something about or intended for ‘all of us’?

This authentic connection is actually the root of a deep and lasting sense of belonging. In “Belonging” bell hooks describes a deep feeling of belonging from the lush countryside and forested mountains of Kentucky. An experience then lost to her when forced to negotiate with the realities of segregation in the city. This just goes to show belonging isn’t even specifically dependent on other people. Her description of a “belonging of place” shows that authenticity of connection supersedes the world of human imposed inequalities of difference. So as queers, do we sometimes use ‘queerness’ to overemphasize the extent to which we are so ‘different’ from others? We do afterall share the human condition. The inequality imposed upon queers from society, systems, and even each other is necessary to be noted. This is essential to actualizing human progression. Can we create belonging within our own micro groups? So called ‘queer spaces’ are a crucial and amazing step forward and yet are often notorious for denial of intersectional identities. An example can be seen in sentiments wherein a differently-abled butch-dyke feels ostracised by the FtMs. Or where I myself felt not femme enough or (eek!) “fish” enough to belong with the other trans-women I knew. Or a low-income person of color whose questioning(of gender and/or sexuality) is ridiculed subtly or overtly by privileged white queers who may have had greater emotional freedom in their upbringing to explore their gender or sexuality. Even if that looks as simple as a condescending comment as bell hooks insinuates in “Teaching to Transgress”(1994) of, “WHAT?! You haven’t read Audre Lorde!” After being judged in a “safe space”, who can a person such as this hope to trust in the difficult coming out processes? I’ve seen it too many times to ignore and in a plethora more incantations than just these. I have no doubt that not all people, regardless of identity, are going to get along; but, if we can’t feel safe amongst queer peers, then where can we? If we expect culture to recognize our existence and allow us the space to belong then why do we struggle so much with it ourselves? The ignorance of meaning in difference is largely to blame and that the politics of privilege are often the culprit. However, we can stretch our comfort zones and make cross-cultural alliances to make a greater socio-political movement. We can expand our notions of what we allow ourselves to learn from as we know true belonging within the context of an authentic connection. We can surround each other with the love we deserve to get the support we need to feel a part of something worthwhile. We can make our own sense of belonging and not settle for those which an oppressive, violent, colonial, and prejudiced culture prescribe us. We can be each other’s mentors by listening to each other’s experience. We can then create the teachers and guides we would have wanted for ourselves, in ourselves and at the service of others.

Only when we expand the definition of belonging to include all of our diversity will we be able to make true authentic community and a context for authentic connection. Together oppression and privilege can be dismantled within, outside of, and between queer communities and the larger, not so distant, ‘non-queer’ world. It can, at first, feel awkward to become an ally. Afterall, it’s tough to dismantle assumptions. In what experience I have with it, it’s so worth the difficulty. We can support those with genuine intentions in their curiosity of how to treat us best, and we can reciprocate any respect we find. It’s not my goal to be a part of greater society if that means I have to assimilate. However, if there is a legitimate space for me and my communities that also doesn’t displace those inside or outside of my peripherals, then I’d love to belong to it. I want to belong, and to a great extent I do belong. I just don’t want belonging at the cost of who I am or who someone else is.

Addendum- Examples of the glamorizing of ‘not belonging’. After writing this essay I thought that maybe I could find some queer/trans folks who might be into or have insight to the ideas. One I thought of(probably because of her recent media) was Kate Bornstein. In trying to find her email however I came up with this seemingly appropriate video she posted on her website advertising her new book. Could this be an example of the type of behavior I am critiquing here? What possible benefit could she be gaining from the commodification of “otherness”? The link is below. Comments are greatly appreciated. (Note: I have great respect for Kate and her work I am simply looking at one piece of her advertising that she may or may not have even created/endorsed.)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=xvqiXqPHj8w

References

Hooks, B. (1994). Teaching to transgress: Education as the practice of freedom. New York: Routledge.

hooks, b. (2009). Belonging: A culture of place. New York: Routledge.

Bevensee, E. (now) Personal experience. Situated situations. Ain’t Published Publishing Co. (unincorporated).

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